So its now 2015…

…2014 has been gone a total of 10 hours. I don’t plan on making any resolutions because I know that they won’t last although I did attempt to stop biting my nails last week which lasted about a day (I do try again every day though). Rather than making resolutions I just want to take each day as it comes, and do my best to get through it as much as I can.

Just Keep Smiling! 🙂 x

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So much ouchiness!

Fibro Symptom #1 = IBS
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I just can’t seem to be able to not have a poorly tummy right now, not sure I have been this bad in a long time! Trust it to be the time that I go home to visit the family… Feeling so bad that I have just curled up and used my heat teddy all day… Not great right now 😦

Just Keep Smiling

Hope you had a lovely Christmas!

😮 How has it been 4 days since I last posted, that is crazy?!

Hope everyone had a good day on Christmas whether it is something you celebrate or not. I had a great day overall, received bad news in the morning that my friend had passed away and also still coping with the news that my step mum had passed the day before, however watching the boys (nephews) being so happy and excitable just helped the day go smoother.

I have been at work every day until then in which they are starting to leave me in charge of the front counter (I work in Fast food!) and allow me to do the paper work and plan breaks and things (Which is exciting) it is tiring, I come home and I am just so tired. We have been a lot more busier than anyone planned we would be, or expected us to be.

I have gone home for a few days to just see the family and just to get away for a few days…imagesCAWF39EG
Just Keep Smiling! 🙂 x

When fibro fog strikes it appears I have no words

I was just thinking about a ‘bad day’ I had a few days ago and realised I had no words for what happened. I had severe pain in my neck but as usual I battled through it and carried on with my day at work but I kept making simple little mistakes throughout the day (sign something else was going on) I finished work and went to do a little bit of Christmas shopping with a friend. This is when my problem really started, I suddenly could not remember what I needed. I got frustrated with myself but couldn’t even find the words to explain to what my issue was. Looking back on it now it is all quite clear to me (Fibro fog) however as much as I got frustrated this didn’t help my situation at all so I wandered around hopeless with no idea what I needed, chatting things through with my friend and little bits started coming back to me and eventually I got my shopping done (even if I did forget a few things, it was progress). brain fog

Anyway my point to this whole story is my friend must have thought I was a right weirdo….If I had the right words I would have explained everything…

Just Keep Smiling! 🙂 x

My 2 year anniversary!

Saturday 20th December marked my 2 year anniversary for my official diagnosis of Fibromyalgia and if I am honest it has been the most successful 2 years of my life so far…Let me explain…

Before being diagnosed I was all over the place, life was a complete mess and I was close to leaving university and just screwing everything up. Then came a rheumatologist who listened to me and tested me and gave me this diagnosis. Fibromyalgia. Something I had never heard of before and yet was not given much information about. I was left to go and research it myself. So anyway back to the story…

Since the diagnosis I stayed and graduated from University with a 2:1 Degree in Drama and now I juggle 2 jobs, both of which I love (in their own unique ways). I have a clearer head and I am able to work through things easier because in my head if I give up and let my condition beat me then I may as well not be here anymore, I should just give up on life. So I have worked harder than I have before and I am more determined to make something of my life.

Its amazing how something as simple as an answer can help.

Just Keep Smiling! x

Just a normal girl…

I feel like now might be a good time to tell you a little more about myself as my blog is currently full of posts relating to Fibro however that isn’t all I am. I am 23 years old. A recent college graduate who juggles two jobs. One doing what I love and one to be able to pay the rent.

My life is currently amazing, well until depression takes hold and then it doesn’t feel like it. I have been grateful to get work in technical theatre and be able to take a step closer to what I want to do as a career and I am really lucky to still have my other job. I am lucky because they work around my other job allowing me to take time and grow as a person.

Having two jobs isn’t easy but I wouldn’t change it at all. I am a person who loves to stay busy otherwise I have time to think and dwell on my condition and nobody wants to do that. Today was a big struggle as I have pulled a muscle in my neck so have been in severe pain all day however off to work I went and dosed up on painkillers, which to be honest didn’t really help however the mind set I had helped me get through the day. No way was I leaving or giving up. I rested as soon I got home but I think it would have been worse had I not gone to work. As usual I am always in pain but it is rare now that I take painkillers unless I really really need them. I seem to cope better being clean from any tablets as my head is clearer and thinking isn’t so hard or as confusing as it could be. You could tell I was ill today as my memory was rubbish, I was slow and often just lacked energy, but here I am with my feet up and a lovely gingerbread latte! What more could a girl need…

I am a hoodie addict, a serious hoodie addict. I have gained two new hoodies in the past two weeks with another one possibly on the way…Making the total over 100 after I have even given some away. Better than spending it on shoes or alcohol I guess!

I am a singer, will probably never sing in public!imagesCAZW7LNB
I have no idea in the direction that my life will take and I have no desire to push for an answer just yet. I am happy enough just seeing where life takes me for now.

Just Keep Smiling! x

So it begins…

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I am so happy with myself.  I have just been for my 1st jog in months (mainly because I have been busy with work) but I feel amazing, tired but pleased with myself. It is a big thing to do when you suffer with a chronic illness because it can go one of two ways, either makes you feel a little bit better or it can bring on a flare, lets see how this pans out over the next few hours…